I can...Do It All!

I wrote this back in Feb. while on campus. I was sitting in the institute building, frustrated about something. So I took out a paper and pen and this is what I got.

How can I do it all? I'm only one person. Stressed out! Life is so crazy sometimes. So much I want to do, but so much holding me back. Money, job, fear. How can I get past it all and make it work? Is that even possible? Can someone really do so much or do they just fail? Can a person really succeed at all their lives goals? If they can't then what is the point of a goal? There would be no point. We all would be going about our pointless lives trying to succeed at the impossible. How crappy is that? But what if someone can do everything they want? Suddenly the pointless becomes something with a point. Something that we strive for. All the ambition or drive in us to get that one thing we want. What is that one thing I want? Is it really just one thing, or is a multiple things mixed into one? You can't make cookies with just sugar or just flour. You need a lot more. So it is with multiple goals with the end result being the person I am. Money? Thats not it. Fame? Could be. But is it worth it? Is that my focus? The fame or money. Or do I do it because I enjoy it?
Sometimes I wish I could just escape reality and life and just do this. Take away all time and responsibility and all the stress of everyday life and just exist. Just do what I enjoy. But is that healthy? Should a person just run from their problems to do nothing? Are the goals we set for ourselves, even if failed, healthy for us? Yeah, I think they are. They give us a purpose and a drive. A passion for doing what we want. Not the things we have to do, but the things that we want to do, that bring us joy. Its more than just existing. Its creating. By setting goals we are creating for ourselves a better life. We create and choose where we want to go and what we want to be. Suddenly I realize that merely existing is not enough. I have to do more than just exist to be happy. I need goals and direction. I need that ambition and that feeling of being so compelled to do something. In that I can find my happiness and joy. This is where I can find purpose. This is how I can do it all.